Jennifer Lopez is spilling the beans about her love life past and present.
For the newest issued of People magazine Jennifer Lopez poses alongside her six year old twins Max and Emmie. The last time JLO let her kids be in the spotlight was a couple years back when they starred in a Gucci campaign, but she usually likes to keep them out of the public eye.
Jennifer opens up to People magazine about her awful breakup with Marc Anthony, what went wrong in her past relationships and still believing in marriage.
On her breakup with Marc Anthony: “It was awful. But I had to make a commitment to myself to be alone: no flirting. No possibility of anything. No boys in any way, shape or form. I said, ‘I’m shutting it down.’ I’d never been alone. I grew up sleeping in a bed with my two sisters. When I became famous, I was surrounded by people and always had a boyfriend or a husband or some relationship, one after the other. At night I said to myself, ‘You’re not working. The kids are asleep. What do you like to do, Jen?’ I didn’t know. It was always, ‘What does he want to do?’ It was very eye-opening to me to spend time completely by myself. I was terrified of being alone: The idea that we are alone in this world, we were born alone, we die alone—it sent panic through my body. I said, ‘I have to face this fear,’ and I did.”
On her past relationships: “I would have loved for my marriage in my 20s [to chef Ojani Noa in 1997] to last till I died, but I see that maybe that was too early. I had more things to learn, and he had more things to learn. And [same with] the next person I married [choreographer Cris Judd in 2001]. And that’s who we are and then we’re great for somebody else. Until then it’s going to be a struggle.”
On love: “I still believe in the fairy tale. I believe in marriage. I believe that two people can commit to each other and share a life together.”